My Realizations about the play

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This year was tough because the practices were so fast and we only have few days to prepare for this event. If given a chance we would like to have it like one month after so that we could really prepare. I realized this year, I was too girly to have a male role. I was just thankful that we have supportive teachers and family members who support us. Our play was not what we’ve hope it would be but I know we did our best. It doesn’t mean that we didn’t win we are losers because for me if we gave up during the play festival we are LOSERS! But we didn’t so it means that we are winners just like the others. St. Elizabeth is compose of different girls with different characteristics but during this play we were one but not that perfect one because some of were still different from the others. I realized that there are people that are easy to understand but hard to reach out for other people. It is hard if you are not that close with your other classmates because it’s hard to ask for help when you are in need. I find it hard to search for a play but it is harder to write the script and choose the cast but the hardest part is to accept whether you lose or you won. We accepted that we lose but what I realized about myself I can do something even though I tell myself that it is impossible for me to do these things. And I realized that there are always friends who are willing to help you if you need help. (Thanks, St. Catherine!)

Final play...

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Before the day of our play, I was again excited! I can’t sleep that much and I kept thinking about what would happen to our play. The next morning, while we were making our Lover’s gate, I was so hyper or energetic that I was so creative. When my classmates start arriving the atmosphere at our classroom was different. I can feel some of us are nervous but some looks like they don’t care but some seemed happy and energetic like me. After I was done preparing for myself I helped Kristina with the other props but then I observed that some of my classmates really didn’t care of our props and it begun. I was angry that I didn’t know what to do. I was so angry that I didn’t felt those feeling that I felt when I woke up and everything messed up. I know our play was beautiful if we were one but I noticed that during the play some of us were selfish. Selfish in a way that they forget about other instead they think of themselves. They didn’t care of our play anymore instead they were more worried of their appearance on stage. They didn’t cooperate with us anymore. I didn’t want to scold them so I just joined Ms. Layson sitting at the chair. I told her what I felt and relax and imagined that I am Hegai, I think Hegai was not on stage instead Ac because of my anger to my classmates. I didn’t blame them for what happened but I hope that they knew what they’ve done during our play because some of the managers were not doing their work not like during the TDR. I was truly disappointed with our presentation not because of what happened but maybe because we lack closeness for some us are only close to people they’ve known before.

Rehearsals...

After we had decided for our casts, we were busy photocopying for our scripts. The following days were a rush! I can’t even rest or relax like I normally do when I am so tired but lass than a month of practices I was pressured especially that we had classes on other subjects. I really felt bad about our practices not because we were playing while practicing but because of the time given to us. I hope next year we should be given more time to prepare. I had fun during our practices because I can laugh whenever I want because of their jokes and foolishness. We didn’t practices like other sections had but we played and bond with one another. I remembered that we would go back to school every Saturday to practices but instead of doing so we would go to the open court to play basketball. I know it sound childish but we did that all. We spend more time in games rather than practicing and that’s why I learned some things about my classmates. Yes, I know my classmates have different characteristics but I understand them but sometimes I am really pissed off that I want them to go away from me. Instead I just talked to them. Our directors were pressured because of us and some of them wants to give up already but they didn’t because they knew that we can do it. During practices, some of us were emotional because of some things that is happening but let me tell you practices was fun and amazing it’s like we are one!

Auditions/ Casting

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At first, I was confused whether I would be in a male role or in a female role but I don’t want either of the female roles so I decided I would be in a male role as Hegai. In the movie, I was really amazed with Tomy Lister. He was so good and I really want to try his role. I chose Hegai because I am not fit in other characters. Auditions was great because our classmate (well some) cooperated. It was hard for me to have a deep and loud voice because as in this year I was so girly and it was hard for me to act as a male but I really tried during the audition. When it was the turn of Hegai to audition I was really excited because I really practiced his voice in my bedroom and even on the bathroom. J I was on the stage. I cleared my throat and breathe in and out and started acting like Tomy Lister. I felt that I was really Hegai. After the auditions in the afternoon, we decided for the casts. I arrived late (which was cool) because the first one that they were deciding was Hegai’s character and I was the one that was chosen. I was chosen! But I didn’t show any emotions and concentrated in our meeting. We had a hard time choosing Esther and Vashti because one has this and the other has that but I was glad that we decided to have Alice us our Esther. After that time, my excitement was really times ten! And we had our cast! J

Our preparations for our play...

Choosing a play was never easy because we have a theme and that is “Asian plays”. We decided at first that we would have “Wicked”, a musical play, but Ms. Adrias didn’t approve so I felt sad about it. Then one day, Ms. Layson gave Jessica an envelope with scripts and I saw the CD of “One Night with the King” but I didn’t tell them. When it was time for us to search for our play I really searched for some plays that could fit us I even asked my sister for some suggestions like the “La Bayadere”. It was really hard searching for our play but then during our CAE class Mr. Guintivano told us about “Esther”. I was a little bit curious about it. Then suddenly I remembered the CD in the envelope but Jessica already got it it’s like she was reading my mind which made me shock. I was not really into “Esther” because it was too serious for us and I really like the one that Apol had suggested because it was comedy but it was majorities’ decision so suddenly I was into it. Each of us was so excited of our play because it was so different unlike what we had last year. We watched the movie in the AVR of the high school, but before that I already watched it in You tube. I really love our play because it was beautiful and you can really learn from it. When we were already writing our script, I can already picture out the people who are good on that characters. Choosing the play was hard but writing the script was harder because we need to erase some of the scenes so that we would have a 1- hour play but we made it even though it was last minute. We even cram the printing of our script that we should be given to our teacher. Some of us even slept late for that and I was really sad because I was one of them but I was stressed because I also need to help in writing our CAF play so I read the original script that we got from the movie. When we passed it to our teacher, I think he told us to erase some of the scenes because it is not really important so Alice decided to delete some and we even asked help from our adviser so that it would be perfect. She really helped us and she even gave us some advice that could help us to make our play a success.

TDR!!!

During this day, I was worried of our presentation because we didn’t finish practicing from scene 1-22 but instead from 1-5 then 20-22 so I was so worried. After lunch, we decided to prepare ourselves put some make-up and prepare our props that we should bring to the hall. When I was helping my classmates to put some make-up I had a feeling which I can’t understand because part of me want to cry and apart would not. Well, back to the subject. I felt sad about our TDR but I know it was way better than our play. During the TDR, the props people were calmer than the play. All the props were arranged properly and neatly. I was at the back helping when I felt the butterflies in my stomach knew right? But it was different from joining a declamation contest. I felt excited, nervous and confident. Maybe it was because that I memorized my lines but aside from that I know that I can do it. But why am I nervous? I am nervous because I am not yet ready or I was not comfortable because it was my first time that I would go out of the stage between some lines not like last year that I only have one scene and I’m done. Or maybe because I don’t know where I would go out and when to say my line. I know it natural to feel those things but for me it is peculiar especially that it was my first time to do that. But I learned a lesson that would change my acting career.

Sisterhood

We never thought that our friendship would come this far. At first, I never expected that our section would have cliques or groups this school year because all of us were so different. By different, I mean that some of us are so quiet or noisy; sleepy and alert; serious (Like me) or funny. There are so many differences but I know in those differences there would be a light to make as ONE. =)

Confused

I don't know what I'm going to feel after the awarding... Am i going to smile, laugh or cry?

Yes! I know play fest was over but I can't move on with the fact that we lose... But we, St. Elizabeth girls, never give up for little things such as this play fest. We will still stand up with our head held high to face the challenge this school year.